Truth , It Seem ...

Unaware of truth ,

She who had it all ,

Fallen prey to the illusion ..

A single drop of regression ,

fallen from her eyes ,

Was all that was needed ...

To transform her ongoing life ..

From trust to betrayal ..

Changes and Answers

" Weather and the season changing , reminds her of changes she was afraid of ... "


Friends to foe ,
Love to hatred ,
Summer days to winter ,
Changes I'm afraid of ..
Never ending changes of life
Halt your transformation
I beg of you 
Allow me to once again breathe
To live without fear
Of losing anymore 
Live my miserable existence away..

oblivion sanctuary

Piercing vibes ,

Crawling its way ..

Into the oblivion she resided on  ..

Descend within the cocoon she knitted ...

Abeyance by time itself ..

Undergone various battery ,

Both internal and external ..

The final resolution she fought for ,

Was the oblivion itself ...

Distant from the Battery  ...

Felt comforting  ...

Building the solitude Sanctuary  ...

Deep with her conscious soul ..

wall around her solitude silence ..

resting within her knitted warmth ..

Await the release of time ,

For the healing process to begin  ..

Memory That Fades Away

Trust ...

A fault I made  ...

Regression was what left for me ...

Took away all the warmth ..

And left me cold ..

Breathless  ,

Buried deep in my grave ..

Burning my mortal organs ...

Terrified  ...

Those cries I sent ,

Never reached the surface ..

Unaware of my needs  ..

Fools left me flowers ..

The stabbed wound  ,

Still fresh on my skin ...

Separated surface of my bareback  ...

Expelling the red tears ,

I savoured in me ,

Away it goes ..

She ,

The devil in disguise ..

Cause of all my misery  ... 

Left me abandoned ,

To be claimed by death ..

To be a memory that fades away ..

As time flies by ...

Equations of emotion

" Do you believe ? "

Your saviour will rise ..

Once again ..

To lead you ..

Towards freedom ..

A life of your desire  ..

" Believe ? "

A love that never existed ..

A person that never came ..

A bright future  ..

A place where you belong ..

Hopes and dreams  .

Left alone and forgotten ..

For darkness became your sanctuary ..

How did this happen ?

Time was the answer ..

Clock ticks the pain away ..

The sound of the clock ..

Brings loneliness into a vacant heart ..

Why is is vacant ? 

The equation of emotions it seems ...

" Cry your loneliness away ,

  Scream your sadness away ,

  Hurt yourself to hurt your soul .."

Is this the answer .. 

Is there anybody out there ...

Is this the end ?

"WHERE IS MY HAPPY ENDING ?"

In silence she stood ...

Unable to accept the truth ..

Alone she was ...

Standing ..

Among the dark shadows  ..

Lurking around her surroundings ...

Coldness creped into her heart ...

Through the missing part of her world ...

Where did it go ?

Tears streaming down her face ...

Sour truth it indicated ...

How did her world change ?

Turned into a hollow dimension  ...

Trapped in this torturous void ..

Her fallen saviour ,

Drifted away from her ..

There she stood ,

Victim of the broken heart ...

"IS THIS THE END ?"

A shining object dangling  ...

Far away from her ..

Hope ?

She ran ..

Towards the only source of light ...

In this pitch black void ..

A solution in disguise  ..

She franticly reached out ..

To hold on to the light ..

She saw into her palm ..

Holding her disguised solution ..

Its sharp order  ..

Ever so inviting  ...

Kissed her wrist apart ..

Allowing her sadness to flow ..

She felt lighter ..

Is this truly the end ? 

"OF MY SUFFERINGS AND SADNESS ? "

Tenessa ---> Ashton

4 Years later ..

ASHTON : Hey ... Tenessa , its been a while ...

TENESSA : A-Ash .. Ashton ...!?

ASHTON : Yeah .. how have you been ...

TENESSA : Why are you back here ...? 

ASHTON : Urm ... I felt like coming back ... so how are the others ...? Haven't met up with them in ages ..

TENESSA : WHY are YOU back here ? 

ASHTON : Tenessa , what's wrong ...?

TENESSA : WHAT'S WRONG ? *tearful eyes* YOU LEFT US ... YOU LEFT US AND WENT AWAY .. YOU LEFT US ... ME ... YOU LEFT ME !! ALONE ... IN THE DARKNESS *tears streaming down her cheek* ... DO YO-URGH ... GO AWAY !

ASHTON : Tenessa .. I'm sorry .. I had to .. you know if I had a choice , I would've stayed .. just to be with you ....

TENESSA : YOU DID HAVE A CHOICE ! YOU HAD A CHOICE , TO TELL ME .. TO INFORM ME FORMALLY ... EXPLAIN YOUR SITUATION ... ONE DAY YOU WERE THERE WITH ME , *sobs real hard* TH-THE NEXT MO-MORNING ... *cries harder* YOU ... YOU WERE GONE ..! YOU ... LEFT ME ... I HATE YOU !! GO AWAY !!

ASHTON : Tenessa , I'm ... I'm sorry ... I didn't mean to hurt you that way .... *steps closer to Tenessa* Tenessa ... I was foolish .. forgive me ... please ...?

TENESSA : *hugs Ashton and sobs harder* I HATE YOU ... I ... I hate you ... *sobs* Did you know how many sleepless night I had to live through .. you promised me you will never leave me ... you PROMISED ! I was all alone ... I had nightmares every single night ever since you left me .... It burns ... IT BURNS TO THE CORE ! 

He Who Wishes ...

The eyes

Cold and isolated

The looks of  desperation

Searching for directions

Where would he find ?

For he stands among the darkness

Or so the thinks

He walks down the pavement

Emitting emotionless concrete walls

Surrounding him

Hoping for a miracle

A miracle to disintegrate the bricks

The warm ray of the solar

To penetrate through the holes

To touch his skin

Embrace him 

To ensure him happiness

Happiness that lasts longer

"HE WHO WISHES TO BE LOVED"

"HE WHO WISHES TO BE CARED"

"HE WHO WISHES TO BE SAVED"

He waits ..

UPDATE !

I GOT A TWITTER NOW ... LINK IN THE NAVIGATION BAR ... FOLLOW ME ...

Abandoned

World  ..

An excuse for Absurdity ..

Standing among wretched eyes  ..

Judgement ..

An authority that never given ...

To the corrupted souls  ...

Roaming the face of the earth ...

Unable to purify their souls ..

Alone I sit  ..

in the corner  ...

Self-destructed ..

Separated from love ..

cornered by faulty eyes ...

darkness is all that remains ..

Rejected ...

By all that remains  ...

Space and time ..

Destroy my heart works  ..

Burn my emotions ..

For all I care ..

Dead is all I am ..

Abandoned and destroyed ...

Beginning and End

Beginning ,

End is essential ..

For beginning to bloom ...

End  ...

Painful or delightful  ,

One does not know ...

For part of life ...

Is the beginning and the end ,

Unpredictable ..

Just as life itself ..

Once an enemy ,

May be ally  ...

Once loved one ,

May become strangers ..

Once alive ..

May not be ,

In the end ..

We all live in the circle ...

Of beautiful  ,

Deadly ,

Painful ,

Delightful ,

Circle of life ...

Ryujji and Taiga

Dead By Decision

Sorrow filled my heart ..

Uninvited ..

Stormed into my heart ..

heavy ..

Unable to breathe ..

A precious memory ..

I chosen to set free ..

For a decision ..

Worth of her happiness ..

I ..

Not worthy of her heart ..

May happiness reside within her ..

Brought by a better life form ..

Her enchanting smile ..

Her ever so gentle skin ..

A choice ..

I had died  ..

The day I made my decision ..

She may be casted away  ..

From the depth of my heart ..

But never her love ..

Shall perish ..

Nor the memories ...

She Who Moves Forward

Tears falling ...

Out of pain and suffering ...

Unheard of her voice ...

Lonely, she is ,

Aid she never gotten ...

Never loved ,

Or felt beloved ...

Marched on ,

She did ...

Through the thorns ,

Grown as the guardians ,

Of plants residing in the forest ...

Marched on ,

She did ... 

As the thorns shredded her skin ...

As the blood dripped ,

Synchronizing with her tear drops ...

Marched on ,

She did ..

Sacrifices, 

Lead to her demise..

Pain,

The only comfort ..

Pain,

For she know she's still alive ...

Pushing her forward ...

Never stop  ...

Move on ... 

Life is your obstacle ...

Move forward ...

Move ...

Inspired By Anime : Gin : Iro No Kami No Agito (ORIGINS : SPIRIT OF THE PAST)

NEW DRAWING

New pic

Not Alone - Finally

Gazing upon the sky ...

Witnessing the Blossoming ...

Of the bright sparks ...

Forming an artificial flower ...

Spreading gracefully ...

Throughout the night sky ...

Standing among the walls ...

Of the fortress I built ...

A fortress of isolation ..

Built by by you and I ..

Bricks by Icy bricks .. 

Days by boring days ..

But content .. 

I am ..

Reason ?

Your are here ...

Within these walls ...

Fortress of Isolation ...

A realm separated  ...

From the eyes of the world ...

With me ..

You are..

Taiga ♥ Ryuuji

Aid For Her Pain

Crawling ...

The surface of our sins ...

The leftovers ...

Of the destruction ...

Caused by foolishness of degenerates ...

She screamed ...

She cried ...

She whimpered  ...

Hoped for a Saviour ...

A chosen soul ..

Who failed  ...

Never came to the aid ...

An aid well needed by her ...

Well deserved by her ..

Innocent life she nurtured ...

Went amiss ... 

Extinct ...

She begged for them ..

To stop ..

To show mercy ..

Threats too..

They never acknowledged .. 

She who suffers ..

Earth ...

Save Her ..

Or crawl among our sins ...

Decision is yours ....

Broken Tale Of Mine - Justice?

Scared ,

Once again ...

Took me on ...

With an invisible blow ...

To strike me down ..

Once again ..

Betrayal ...

Forbidden emotions ?

She ..

God's menion ...

Assigned to strike me down ...

Within me ...

A so called invinciblity ...

A mere fool I am ...

Leaving my agis of immortality ..

Standing vulnerable ...

Between the marksmens ...

Ambushed ...

By the minion of god ...

The wall I broke ..

Upon request of her ...

She ...

The soul I cared the most ...

Lifted her holy dagger ...

And proceed to stab me ...

Till a piece of my tainted heart ...

Fell into million little precipitate ...

Yet a fool I am ..

Never stopped hopping ...

While she stayed up ..

On her holy throne ...

demanding more ...

The tainted soul I am ...

Gave her all I am ...

Cheerful ...

I can't be ...

There were many wound ...

Left untreated ...

As I tend my wounds ...

Yet ...

She inflicted more pain ...

She broken my soul ...

Particle by particle ...

Ripped love out of me ...

Lelf me standing ...

Stranded ... Waiting ...

For the answer I desire ...

Why ...