Purgatory🔗Darkness

The frigid canvas brings ardor,

Why does it do so?

A warm shower feels cold,

Why does it feel so?

The night zephyr carries comfort,

Why does it appear so?

Why ?

Hope - Through His Eyes

Hope,

What his soul grasped onto ..

A hope for a new tomorrow,

For a new beginning,

Hope,

To ease the loneliness,

To make him whole again.

Hope,

What he saw in her eyes,

What he needed to survive,

The harsh winter of solitude,

Or his withering happiness in autumn.

Memories

We belong together ,

Was once ...

Long time ago ...

Where love was just a journey , 

Into fantasies beyond limitations ...

So it seemed ...

Till reality broke these sanctuary ..

Waves of lies broke us apart ,

Memory That Fades Away

Trust ...

A fault I made  ...

Regression was what left for me ...

Took away all the warmth ..

And left me cold ..

Breathless  ,

Buried deep in my grave ..

Burning my mortal organs ...

Terrified  ...

Those cries I sent ,

Never reached the surface ..

Unaware of my needs  ..

Fools left me flowers ..

The stabbed wound  ,

Still fresh on my skin ...

Separated surface of my bareback  ...

Expelling the red tears ,

I savoured in me ,

Away it goes ..

She ,

The devil in disguise ..

Cause of all my misery  ... 

Left me abandoned ,

To be claimed by death ..

To be a memory that fades away ..

As time flies by ...

Beginning and End

Beginning ,

End is essential ..

For beginning to bloom ...

End  ...

Painful or delightful  ,

One does not know ...

For part of life ...

Is the beginning and the end ,

Unpredictable ..

Just as life itself ..

Once an enemy ,

May be ally  ...

Once loved one ,

May become strangers ..

Once alive ..

May not be ,

In the end ..

We all live in the circle ...

Of beautiful  ,

Deadly ,

Painful ,

Delightful ,

Circle of life ...

Dead By Decision

Sorrow filled my heart ..

Uninvited ..

Stormed into my heart ..

heavy ..

Unable to breathe ..

A precious memory ..

I chosen to set free ..

For a decision ..

Worth of her happiness ..

I ..

Not worthy of her heart ..

May happiness reside within her ..

Brought by a better life form ..

Her enchanting smile ..

Her ever so gentle skin ..

A choice ..

I had died  ..

The day I made my decision ..

She may be casted away  ..

From the depth of my heart ..

But never her love ..

Shall perish ..

Nor the memories ...

She Who Moves Forward

Tears falling ...

Out of pain and suffering ...

Unheard of her voice ...

Lonely, she is ,

Aid she never gotten ...

Never loved ,

Or felt beloved ...

Marched on ,

She did ...

Through the thorns ,

Grown as the guardians ,

Of plants residing in the forest ...

Marched on ,

She did ... 

As the thorns shredded her skin ...

As the blood dripped ,

Synchronizing with her tear drops ...

Marched on ,

She did ..

Sacrifices, 

Lead to her demise..

Pain,

The only comfort ..

Pain,

For she know she's still alive ...

Pushing her forward ...

Never stop  ...

Move on ... 

Life is your obstacle ...

Move forward ...

Move ...

Inspired By Anime : Gin : Iro No Kami No Agito (ORIGINS : SPIRIT OF THE PAST)

Not Alone - Finally

Gazing upon the sky ...

Witnessing the Blossoming ...

Of the bright sparks ...

Forming an artificial flower ...

Spreading gracefully ...

Throughout the night sky ...

Standing among the walls ...

Of the fortress I built ...

A fortress of isolation ..

Built by by you and I ..

Bricks by Icy bricks .. 

Days by boring days ..

But content .. 

I am ..

Reason ?

Your are here ...

Within these walls ...

Fortress of Isolation ...

A realm separated  ...

From the eyes of the world ...

With me ..

You are..

Taiga ♥ Ryuuji

Aid For Her Pain

Crawling ...

The surface of our sins ...

The leftovers ...

Of the destruction ...

Caused by foolishness of degenerates ...

She screamed ...

She cried ...

She whimpered  ...

Hoped for a Saviour ...

A chosen soul ..

Who failed  ...

Never came to the aid ...

An aid well needed by her ...

Well deserved by her ..

Innocent life she nurtured ...

Went amiss ... 

Extinct ...

She begged for them ..

To stop ..

To show mercy ..

Threats too..

They never acknowledged .. 

She who suffers ..

Earth ...

Save Her ..

Or crawl among our sins ...

Decision is yours ....

Broken Tale Of Mine - Justice?

Scared ,

Once again ...

Took me on ...

With an invisible blow ...

To strike me down ..

Once again ..

Betrayal ...

Forbidden emotions ?

She ..

God's menion ...

Assigned to strike me down ...

Within me ...

A so called invinciblity ...

A mere fool I am ...

Leaving my agis of immortality ..

Standing vulnerable ...

Between the marksmens ...

Ambushed ...

By the minion of god ...

The wall I broke ..

Upon request of her ...

She ...

The soul I cared the most ...

Lifted her holy dagger ...

And proceed to stab me ...

Till a piece of my tainted heart ...

Fell into million little precipitate ...

Yet a fool I am ..

Never stopped hopping ...

While she stayed up ..

On her holy throne ...

demanding more ...

The tainted soul I am ...

Gave her all I am ...

Cheerful ...

I can't be ...

There were many wound ...

Left untreated ...

As I tend my wounds ...

Yet ...

She inflicted more pain ...

She broken my soul ...

Particle by particle ...

Ripped love out of me ...

Lelf me standing ...

Stranded ... Waiting ...

For the answer I desire ...

Why ...

Who worries , but me ..

Numb ..

Visions and choices ..

Showed me once ..

Pain  ..

Corroding my heart ..

Love  .. 

Wishful thinking ..

We were here ..

We were there ...

All that remains  ..

Are memories  ..

Of a sudden disappointment ..

Lost of warmth ..

Memories formed a blade ..

Razor-sharp object ..

Soaring around my heart ...

Connecting its sharp fingers ..

To the raw flesh ...

Surrounding my shattered heart ...

Slicing every resistance in its way ...

Scorching pain ...

Who worries  ...

But me ...

Pain I feel ...

Only pain I feel ...

Fade away

Fade away ...
All I need now ...
To fade away ...
Never to be found  ...
Again ...
Never again ...
Would I hurt any being ,
Torture their sanity ,
I shall seal my faith ...
Into the dark sky ,
Across the universe ,
Where never to be found ..
Again ...
For what left of me ...
Darkness ,
Evil deeds ,
Blame and tears ,
A convict who escaped trial ...
Nothing more ...
Just a torso ,
Empty and incomplete ...

Emo Pic

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I Kept Asking

Move away ...

Says my mind ...

Says ? Not quite right ..

Screaming ...

Better description ..

I ...

Out of words to describe ,

My vocabulary ...

Limited it seems ...

The only way ,

The Absolute one and only way ...

To express ...

Emotions "CAGED" up within me ,

In the depth of my soul ,

A hollow dark surrounding ...

Where my emotions resides ..

Without any light intensity ...

Without any form of living soul ...

The only existence ,

Are my emotions ...

Unable to attain peace ,

Or any form of calmness ...

Why ? I kept asking ,

Asking who ...?

I wonder ...

Emotions / Void

Ever haunting thoughts ,

Memories of you ...

Surrounds the path I desire ..

The path I walk ...

As if binding ropes sealing ...

My scared soul ..

Reminding me ...

Haunting me ...

Every movement I take ...

Bound to slice me ...

Furthermore ...

Trapping me ...

Confiscating my opportunity ...

 To soar high ...

Locking me deep inside ...

Of this Void ...

Void of illusion and darkness ...

A dreamland of you ...

Tormenting me ...

Restless ... 

~ HEAVY ...! ~

Destructed Trust

Trust ,
Certitude ...
Broken , demolish, forsaken ...
Into the dept of jealousy ..
resentfulness ...
A single stone by a single stone ..
Sweat and tears ...
Built the warm cell ...
Of trust and certitude ..
But sadly ...
Went to waste ...
All of it ..
All that took ,
Is seconds of nothing ..
Simply nothing ..
As I kept my effort  ..
And continuously tried ...
You took it ,
As if a play toy ,
And shattered it ...
Not once ,
But countless times ...
All left in my conscious ...
A broken bond ,
Raging anger ,
Endless fatigue ,
And overwhelming tiredness ...

In The Midnight

Standing here ...

Alone ?

Stared down the aisle...

Among the pitiful darkness ...

A tower ,

Standing rather tall ...

And mighty posture ..

Signifying it's greatness ..

But to adversity ...

It shows nothing but the rhythm we follow ...

" Time "

Or to call it a highway ...

Highway of endless surprises ...

As I wondered ...

I stared at the mighty tower ...

My vision were hazy ..

By the sudden mist ...

Formed around me ..

Stimulating a particular feeling ...

Tingling sensation ...

Dancing graciously throughout my skin ...

I hear the sound of the deadline ..

The day has come to an end ...

As the new beginning rose ..

The creatures of the night ..

Have their midnight stroll ..

My vision was slowly repairing itself ...

As my view came clear ...

The direction I gazed upon ...

Had left me in awe ..

what a elegant beauty ...

a maiden ...

...

For my vision was still comprehending the situation ...

As the mist danced around us..

I gawked in her direction ..

The maiden surrounded ..

By mysterious wisps ...

Glowing in the darkness ..

Gracefully obeying her intentions ...

She must be an angel ..

For all I could see ..

The wild beauty ..

The untold prophecy ...

She must have been ..

Of an "angelic" figure ...

Elegantly dancing ..

With the mother nature herself ...

There I stood ...

Once again ...

Drafting into my thoughts ..

What a wonderful world ...

This must be ...

What hurts the most

Did some decision unwillingly cause its better to have a broken heart than breaking someone's heart ...


" why do we cry and unwillingly say goodbye "

Guilt ...
The only conscious ...
Swelling within me ...
Nights after nights ...
Trials after trials .. 
Obstacles after obstacles ...
Where did we stand ?
I was to be blamed ,
Once again ..
Happiness I couldn't give ...
Love I couldn't share ...
Harsh ?
Objective of us was you ,
But blames were taken by me ...
Harsh ?
Words I shared ?
Hurting you never was my intention ,
Clarify was the purpose ...
Harsh ?
The reason was your actions ,
But blame was on me ?
Happiness ,
I couldn't made you feel ...
It was clarified ,
By You ...
For here i stood ...
Waiting for you ...
To notice my real existence ...
Not a mirror image ,
Of fake laughter ...
My true existence ...
Love me for who i truly am ...
Can't you see ?
The sole purpose ,
For you to open your eyes ..
Look through me ...
And love me !
Not the fake laughter ,
You fell in love with ...
What hurt the most ,
You truly believe the fake laughter ,
Is the real me ...
Whats left to do ... 
Is to hurt myself then hurt you ...

" why do you refuse to believe in me ? "

Iron Grip Of Past

DARREN : i tried to b happy with my life...believe me, i did, after goin thru so much sadness n sorrow...but i juz cant seem to, even if i ignore pp'l judgement and reflets of my past, i would eventually fall back into my haunting pasts, bcuz my life have been that way ...

happiness ...

a word of million desires...

an emotion ,

i could not achieve ,

efforts went to waste ...

spirited away ,

attached itself to the wind ...

the remaining pieces ,

of my hardened heart ,

sadness , sorrow , wasted desires ..

chained me ...

an iron grip of the past ...

judgement of the sinful eyes of the world ,

ignorance was wishful thinking ,

the death grip ,

denies my movement ,

couldn't move forward ...

trapped in my own past ...

trapped ..

The way of life ,

which i did not choose...

which was casted upon me ...