Memory That Fades Away

Trust ...

A fault I made  ...

Regression was what left for me ...

Took away all the warmth ..

And left me cold ..

Breathless  ,

Buried deep in my grave ..

Burning my mortal organs ...

Terrified  ...

Those cries I sent ,

Never reached the surface ..

Unaware of my needs  ..

Fools left me flowers ..

The stabbed wound  ,

Still fresh on my skin ...

Separated surface of my bareback  ...

Expelling the red tears ,

I savoured in me ,

Away it goes ..

She ,

The devil in disguise ..

Cause of all my misery  ... 

Left me abandoned ,

To be claimed by death ..

To be a memory that fades away ..

As time flies by ...

Equations of emotion

" Do you believe ? "

Your saviour will rise ..

Once again ..

To lead you ..

Towards freedom ..

A life of your desire  ..

" Believe ? "

A love that never existed ..

A person that never came ..

A bright future  ..

A place where you belong ..

Hopes and dreams  .

Left alone and forgotten ..

For darkness became your sanctuary ..

How did this happen ?

Time was the answer ..

Clock ticks the pain away ..

The sound of the clock ..

Brings loneliness into a vacant heart ..

Why is is vacant ? 

The equation of emotions it seems ...

" Cry your loneliness away ,

  Scream your sadness away ,

  Hurt yourself to hurt your soul .."

Is this the answer .. 

Is there anybody out there ...

Is this the end ?

"WHERE IS MY HAPPY ENDING ?"

In silence she stood ...

Unable to accept the truth ..

Alone she was ...

Standing ..

Among the dark shadows  ..

Lurking around her surroundings ...

Coldness creped into her heart ...

Through the missing part of her world ...

Where did it go ?

Tears streaming down her face ...

Sour truth it indicated ...

How did her world change ?

Turned into a hollow dimension  ...

Trapped in this torturous void ..

Her fallen saviour ,

Drifted away from her ..

There she stood ,

Victim of the broken heart ...

"IS THIS THE END ?"

A shining object dangling  ...

Far away from her ..

Hope ?

She ran ..

Towards the only source of light ...

In this pitch black void ..

A solution in disguise  ..

She franticly reached out ..

To hold on to the light ..

She saw into her palm ..

Holding her disguised solution ..

Its sharp order  ..

Ever so inviting  ...

Kissed her wrist apart ..

Allowing her sadness to flow ..

She felt lighter ..

Is this truly the end ? 

"OF MY SUFFERINGS AND SADNESS ? "