Refuse - Logen Author Beastly

Voice that i used to hear,
the serenade that i feed on ,
disappearing from my existence,
the image of you ,
dragged away from my memories,
It hurts ,
feels as though a spear twisted,
through my soul.


I feel pain ,
I feel guilty,
I feel responsible for my own agony,
I never open up to anyone,
mind filled with insecure,
afraid of the pain it brings ,
when the hopes are shattered.


nothing feels right these days,
flaws after flaws,
tears after tears,
emotionally confused and distracted,
endless days and restless nights,
but no comfort,
the bright light used to see ,
In the end of the tunnel,
Is fading away,
I want it back in my life.


am I going back towards the pitch black realm?
am I going to drown in this sea of merciless darkness?
I don't want to feel alone again,
I'm afraid to go back,
I refuse to go back,
I refuse .....